Catch twenty and two
a bad habit hard to break
The familiarity is a welcome distraction
Daily conversations, daily appreciation,
Comes with frustration, too.
Let go – drop
Falling down the gaping hole suddenly
opened up from the concrete ground
dizzy, semi-conscious, drowsy
and at times I wake up catch myself and I hold on to the sides
and I try to climb back up
but I just keep falling.
A day is only a day
when the sun has risen and set
and I have talked to you.
And a break in that routine;
And words seem to carry a new kind of weight
And language is so beautiful when used with you
And maybe I’m completely blinded
because I see things not as I had always seen them
rosy, dreamy filters — everything’s just so much nicer.
For so long, I looked around me and I wondered
how people were able to commit, for so long
I wondered who could be so fulfilling
Who could be “enough” for another
and I liked that control but you
take that away but I
could be so happy with you
But it’s so scary but
you make me feel
I want to wait, and see you
and perhaps for the first time, commit.
We’ve both grown and gone down
different paths life has shown us
of course, maybe we aren’t what we think
we are of each other
illusions, wishful thinking and
too many maybes,
but I’m not naive – just that
I look forward to making it work.
I don’t want to lose you again
And so I’ll try, and just enjoy this sweet ride
where ever it takes me
although I know that
maybe, it’s all just pure fantasy.
Maybe, we’re just meant to be
you as you and
me as me,
not as collective, we.
But I’ll wait and see.